What lies we tell ourselves, my mind, how long will you keep misleading me?

My rights, my ownership, my laws, my survival. Dissolve into a sea of ever evolving (dissolving?) information.

After the sun fades, was there ever a sunset?

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Is she really dying? But, why, she is such a good person?

But then again, the sunset was pretty as well.

But next time, next time i will be prepared for it fading!

Oh dear mind, your nature is to lie; now without you, i can’t even believe myself.

My privacy is not private, this information can be accesed by people who would really want to inspect it. But more than people would see my senseless writing, i am worried about something, i can not yet quite articulate. The 90′s were a time of internet freedom, now in 2010′s its like everyone should have developed an internet personality by now. One that is rarely changing, one that clings to what is right or chosen by what is accepted, or simply what is fashion in the society you are currently accessing. I don’t really feel free to post anything anymore. Universities have more power that it was probably invisioned, and apparently threats against those who post on the internet contrary to what is deemed likable by superiors is punishable.

When did another person allow themselves to that kind of conciet, as to make the internet theirs? Have i unconsciously allowed it? Everything is now labeled, and sorted into the appropriate themes. The freedom that the people who previously labored for, a vision that was to become the internet, is tainted. Its saddening, frustrating and just such a huge letdown.

Personally, i wonder what kind of ends should i let myself go to preserve it. I have a body that requires food, yet i am completely dependant on other people to provide for me. If once there was slavery, it doesn’t mean that todays world, which fought relentlessly against the use of the word, achieved that i am not a slave. I am completely dependant, and my masters decide upon my tasks. So i don’t know if im prepared to go to great ends, when people can easily withold resources from me should they decide they do not like my behaviour. They withold my education.

Books used to be free, not? Didn’t people strive so much to achieve knowledge accessible to everyone? Yet knowledge is still kept from people, in the form of accreditations. I may know as much as the next person or more, yet should one person by disliking me withould the scores from me, i will be considered uninformed, nearly ignorant or stupid by those i would hope would hire me. I do what is decided best for me to do. I ask, how can someone else know better then me, never having walked in my shoes before? Can i just once screw up, do something not considered optimal, even if just to learn from it? Does everything need to have a fabricated consequence, as if nature had no laws that would neccesitate something to happen from a cause by itself?

What did we trade our freedoms for, i ask? I wonder if what we got was worth it? Because i did not share the fruits we got in return. I can only see that free i am not. It is decided upon me which days i will sleep. It is decided which days i will work. It is decided upon me when i will read a certain book. It is decided upon me when reading the exact same book will be punishable. I may want to work, but i am not employable at any place that man should even consider as a valid effort. Should i manipulate people into buying inferior products by lying to them? Should i work at producing cigarettes things of that sort, that are, frankly, poisons? Should i deal with beraucracy, which is the task of million upon millions of people chained to their place, small almost as that of the abused chickens they buy their eggs from? Yet in itself, beraucracy never even did feed one single person?

I think im lost, even if slightly… In the midst of it, i hope it is just a misunderstanding, a passing thought, shaped by the way i feel today and gone with the new feelings tomorrow will invoke in myself…

1. A fast paced walk before you take off can make a world of a difference regarding how your dog will behave when you arrive. I usually take my dog for a run with my skates on for about 10 minutes, and it helps improve his behavior tremendously. Excitable, annoying or nervous dogs do not make a welcome visitor, and tiring them out a bit can really improve the experience for you and your dog.

2. Cleanliness. You should pay special attention to grooming your dog when you intend to visit someone. Keeping something in your car or bag to quickly clean or wipe your dogs paws can really help with how your visit will be perceived by the host. Also, remember to clean any other objects you bring with yourself – the collar and leash may not look dirty when you see them everyday, but put some soap and water on them, you may notice there is lots of dirt washing out!

3.General appearance of the dog. Are you a fan of spiked collars? If you are not sure your friends like the looks of a strong dog, i’d suggest you aim for “cute”. This may greatly reduce the fear some people feel when they meet a new dog, and thus also improve the impression your dog will have of the people, thus behaving in a more relaxed manner. Funny accessories are the way to go.

4.Toys. It can often really help to have something with you to keep the dog busy while you are talking with other people. Having a chew-toy on hand can really improve the experience. Toys for throwing (balls etc) or pulling are less appropriate – there may not be enough space for that, besides you may have to turn your attention to other things then your dog.

Now what do you do?

On the outside it may only look black and white, but that does not mean that’s all to it.

Say you pick something you will do, it is decided.

You could’ve made a wrong move, you screwed up with this one…

Or maybe, what you did turned out really well so you would always like to decide the same way?

Sometimes a decision we make seems to make everything start falling apart. But we learn from it sometime, if it wasn’t the first time it happened, maybe you had the luck to see it the next time the pattern appeared. Now you can do it better next time, no need to beat yourself up over it – celebrate the fact that you now know what to do. Or even that you found out what does not work, don’t underestimate the importance of it.

Sometimes you decide about life or death. Sometimes you just have to pick a nearly random choice. Some decisions may be more important than others. Your “unimportant” choices will always add up to the important ones.

But why did you decide to do that then, you knew once you do something, you can never turn back time and undo it? If you screwed it up, why was it?

Sometimes, you have fallen behind. What you did was the best thing you could do, but since your disadvantage in one area you had to decide on something risky. It turned out badly, but that didn’t mean you made a wrong decision.

Sometimes, you are leading. But your low experience simply did not allow you to foresee what will happen if you choose to play it that way.

But something is for certain. If you keep on trying out new things, you will not fall behind. And when you are leading the way, you will not make bad choices if you gain experience by trying to find the best choice a lot – that is – by practice.

Even if you sometimes decide to make a move later, always remember, that that is in itself a decision, so do not procrastinate when you see it will do you harm for sure, when a move has a slight chance of working. And make a choice next time, even if it once didn’t work out and only seemed a waste of time.

Only by trying things out, and doing so often, options will start appearing favorable to you naturally.

Also, remember you are not the first person screwing up that obvious choice. And remember, sometimes it helps to ask someone for advice, since he played the shape before and knows whats best;)

Go is a very old board game. If you have never tried it out, maybe check out a page where you can play it for free and see if you like it!

What if the whole of your waking reality is only a dream?

Everyone knows in which direction the time goes, that being from the past we get to the present, and next to the present is the future.

But say, what if time actually went in the exact opposite direction? What if we do a ‘change things by moving the observer’ thought experiment? The mechanics of the world now change. Entropy decreases, and things now broken want to become whole again. A machine would not loose energy by emitting heat, but rather need it in order for the past to happen; in order to function.

It would certainly would be something to look at regarding our mental worlds. Yes, there is some correlation between what we did in the past and what we will do in the future; but aren’t we mostly doing things because of what we think will happen in the future? Or maybe we remember loved ones to meet them again in the past?

Did you ever think what changes would be made in the laws of a world in which time was actually going backwards?

I used to have a big extra closet – i got rid of it along with its contents.

I used to tell myself i didn’t need a dog – but i got one.

I used to hate to go to school, now i don’t leave it 24hrs a day and love it.

I used to not notice school administration – now its in my way all the time.

I used to talk to my friends daily – now i talk to someone about once a month.

I used to use Windows, now i use an operating system.

I used to have the patience to teach people – now i just let things go.

I used to think people were selfish – but they don’t care enough for something like that.

In 10 years, nothing has changed in my life.

Yeah, got me taken aback when i first realized too.

#1: learned about person #3, and since others respected #1 for knowing about #3 in detail, #1 valued the knowledge of person #3.

Than the world changed.

#2: #1 insisted that #2 learned about #3 as well, as to have a successful future. So the free time #2 had was shortened. When time passed, #2 knew all about #3. #2 despised the knowledge of #3.

Because what is #2 to do with #3 now that everyone knows as well?

While keeping school systems from 2004 seems inappropriate, why do we keep them for hundreds of years than?